I think
at the core we are all still that person we were at seventeen. After seventeen we still grow through
experience and self examination (at least you do if you’re any kind decent
human being), but all we can do after that is put on dampers or make modifications
on what has been hard set since then.
You may realize your behavior in a
certain situation is wrong, but it will always be your first instinct. If that behavior is non-beneficial to
what you are trying to achieve in life and it burns you too many times you will
have to control it and train yourself to stifle it or keep failing.
Over the years you accumulate a lot of
checks and balances that basically exist to keep the reins on your adolescent
self and prevent him or her from popping up and making a mess of your adult
life.
That’s why people fuck up almost on a
daily basis. It’s a very
thin line to walk everyday, keeping track of all of your modifications and new
rules you’ve made for yourself since high school while all the time that inner
person that you’ve convinced yourself that you can’t trust keeps crashing
around inside you demanding to be heard.
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